Friday, April 25, 2008

First assignment

Hello fellow Readers,
I mentioned a post or so ago that I was beginning a new writing course online. I have finished 2 lessons now and absolutely love it. I can feel my creative juices flowing again and it feels great! I wanted to share my first writing assignment with you. We were supposed to light a candle and tell everyone about the candle. Our goal was to bring all the 123 people in the class enough about the candle, that they felt like they were looking at it too. So, here it is!

My candle has an amber glow down to middle as it flickers at the wick. It is swaying while the draft gently tosses it around. I wonder, if I sit here very still, will it stand at attention? Are the breaths, that I breath really enough to make it continue to move? The wax around the wick is beginning to melt. It has burned down just enough into the center of the candle that it looks like the inside of a cave with a hot spring in the middle and fire coming up out of the water. The fire continues to jump, unsteadily with a serene feel to it. As I stare into the small flame, it looks soft. Like if I touch it, it wouldn’t hurt, but feel like a warm winter blanket. I can feel the warmth and if I let myself go, I imagine it being cold outside and having this warm fire to cuddle up next to. Soon, I will have to blow out this, ever so peaceful flickering flame and move on with my day.

Until we read again...

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Let's play the what if game?

I don't know if this is even worth writing about, but I felt the need to do it anyway. The thought came to my head, like a brink, on the way home from taking Catie to school. I know that folks say not to play the, "What If Game", because you could play it all day and never win, but I did it anyway. I am always breaking the rules...

Anyway, how about this scenario?

What if, the person you are today, went back 10 - 15 years to the person you were back then? Could you live that life? What would your friends and family and coworkers think of you?

I went back to when I was a supervisor in Customer Service. I guess that was '98/'99 for me. That is what I was doing before I got pregnant and while I was pregnant with Catie. I was a different person then. Looking back, I see a world full of sin all around me. I was swimming in the midst of it and didn't even know it. I was blinded by the darkness. That was before I accepted Jesus as my Savior. I still had God with me, but I didn't live for Him. If I was to go back and live this life back then, I don't think that I would have lasted very long. I probably would have not been able to speak freely about my faith. I probably would have been made fun of. I probably would have felt like the outcast. I can see folks calling me the Jesus freak or Bible Thumper. Persecuted, in my own job, go figure. I don't think I would have been very respected. I think, in my case, my family would have been the same as they are now. Tentative, supportive, but not very understanding of what I had and why I wanted them to have it too. It is hard for people, who don't see the light, to see it until they "see" it. Does that make sense? I don't think that I would have had the same friends because my light might have blinded them. They were in such a dark place. I wonder who I would have had as friends? Who was a follower and I never saw them because they were too scared to show their light for fear of being ostracized? Interesting question. I guess I will never know.

There are tons of other questions this game could raise right now, but I think that is enough for me. You know, I could play this game all day long and never win.

Until we read again...

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Oh so long, oh so much

Gosh, it feels like forever since my last posts. Oops, it has been! So sorry about that.

Lots been going on. Too much to tell, but long story short. Softball, school, softball, sleep, softball, allergies, softball, working out, softball, losing 9 inches off my body and 11 pounds. Yes, I am getting smaller! Just one size so far, but it is coming off! I have an awesome support group and we all feed off of each other. If one of us had a lousy week, then one of us had a great week and we can all still celebrate! Awesome!

I started a writing course online, so expect my posts to get better. I am very excited. I feel like I am answering a call of God to use my talents, finally. He has been hounding me for almost a year now and I spoke to someone who really pushed me over the edge to take the leap of faith. Fun Fun! Wish me luck.

So for now, unfortuneatly, I don't have much else to say. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still here, just with not a whole lot extra stuff to say. I get ideas in my head in the middle of the night, but then I don't remember them in the morning.

Take care everyone and may God bless you abundantly!
Until we read again...wt

Faith Writers